Welp, here we are again, a new chapter in our story, only...it feels like I'm reading it backwards, not forwards. It's almost like the last month ever happened. Only it did....and I don't know how I feel about it. Empty. Hollow. Nothing. That's a good way to describe it. Maybe my emotions just need to be turned off for awhile to let myself re-coop mentally. My period started Monday and today I started birth control again. We'll continue writing our story in March.
I had a great chat/therapy session with my infertile/just miscarried friend over the weekend. Boy, was that great to get to talk to her. I think we both needed it. We enjoyed several bottles of wine over the course of our visit...(we shared with DH's...don't worry...we're not that big of lushes...although I did have a lil headache the next morning!). We were both in such positive moods, I don't know, maybe I drained myself of it. All I know is this week I'm empty. No sadness. No happiness. No nothing. I've been a bit of a zombie and I'm really hoping I snap out of it soon. Although...it might not be such a bad thing for it to last a few more weeks. I'm meeting up with 3 girlfriends from college---and all 3 of their adorable infants--next weekend. Maybe 'nothing' is what I need to make it through that emotional torture?
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